Which is it?

We get to find out what we're having today! Ok, so we know it's human and has a heart beat and is VERY active. Soooo, will it be a boy or a girl? Shaun, of course, is hoping for another boy. He'd really be thrilled with another hunting and fishing partner. I might feel a bit sorry for him if it's not a boy... Shane, Logan, and I are hoping it will be a girl. For a while I was really feeling like this one was a girl. You know, mother's intuition and all that. However for the past couple weeks, and I don't know why, I've been wondering if it's a boy. Maybe I'm just trying to prepare myself. lol I'd be happy with another boy. I have also always wanted a daughter. I'm still leaning toward a girl... We'll see this afternoon!

The plan is for Shaun to pick the boys up at home around 3:30 or so and then meet me at the doctor's office. If he's running late then I'll need to leave here at 3:30 just to run home and get the boys and then get to the sonogram appointment by 4. I'm so nervous and excited! We asked the boys months ago if they would like to be there for this and yes, they are excited as well. It has been very fun for them to be a part of this. They were each able to feel baby movement a couple days ago so it's starting to get more real for them as well. Whether it's a boy or girl, I can't wait to know. More than anything I just want to hear that the baby is still doing well, has all it's parts, and looks strong and healthy. That's how I'm feeling but I'm still scared that something might go wrong.

My anxiety was pretty bad for a couple weeks at the end of July due to other stresses so of course I was worrying about the baby more than I needed to also. I'm good at keeping my stress level low even though I lead an absolutely crazy life. I get lots of rest and keep on top of my school work so that I don't take the stress out on my family. Sometimes I slip a little when my anxiety level is high. Poor Shaun had to deal with me being a bit of a monster on and off for that two weeks. Now that the summer session is over with and I've started on my August online course I'm doing much better. I'm even a couple days ahead! I love working ahead and really can't stand waiting until the last minute to do the work. My intersession course had a lot of reading and one-page posts and then responses. Other than that there are only a couple other assignments to do within this three-week session, each with deadlines. Last night, after uploading my chapter posts, I watched the movie Lorenzo's Oil. Now I get to write a 4-6 page paper by Friday. Easy! I love writing. (In case you couldn't tell by this blog!)

Now off to work to day away while dreaming about the baby! More to come, probably tonight!